I Want to be A Bride, Not a Wife, 60" x 72", Oil on Canvas, Jan 2020

After obsessing about weddings for months, I decided to paint the image of the perfect wedding I created in my head. When I started thinking about why I liked the idea of weddings so much, I realized that I completely dissociated the concept of marriage from weddings. To me, a wedding is a day of celebration and is full of happiness and joy. Marriage, on the other hand, entails compromise and responsibility. I didn’t see the love that would maintain in the long term. I saw marriage more as a transaction rather than a loving relationship. However, the more I thought about it, I realized that it was really sad that I viewed marriage that way, especially when I hadn’t fallen in love yet. This painting is a way for me to regulate my thoughts on love, partnership and to come to terms with this dichotomy that I have created. Here, I am projecting my main fantasies of a perfect wedding: a destination wedding in the South of France, with a rose crepe cake from Lady M, free flow Champagne and a red rose bouquet I will hold.